Do You ever sit and wonder why things happen?

I have been wondering this a lot more lately as I quickly approach 25 (20 days away) I am wondering Why I didn't go to college out of state and make myself be self sufficient? Why Don't I strive to be more independent ( Less Dependent on my parents) ? Why Do I have this Crazy Shopping addiction I can not control at times? Why has every relationship I have been turned to shit? Why do I act like an only child and I am really not? Why is it so hard for me to turn away from friendships that are toxic or non-beneficial Then like a flash of light I get all of the outrageous answers:

1. I didn't go to college out of state because I would have missed my family too much! I also wasnt 100 percent ready to be an adult.

2.I don't strive to be more independent because typically things are handed it to me. By my parents or other people. I must say I am extremely spoiled and I am working on this! But I like being the baby :)

3.My shopping addiction is in my bloodline. My grandmother taught me everything I know! I must say I have slowed it down a bit but, lately its been picking back up its like a comfort thing for me I guess?!?!

4.As far as relationships go..... I have realized I am too nice to the opposite sex and they take that for granted. its not really in my nature to be EVIL but, apparently being nice you finish last or with the short end of the stick! And before you know it your the last one of your friends that isn't married LOL.

5. My only child syndrome I believe it comes from me and my sister being so far apart in age! I mean now we are both adults and we get along most of the time! I had a lot of time perfecting being alone as a child ! So I dont share well or play well with others all the time! And I kind of like it that way!

Ok! That's my rant for the day ! I have Nursing Applications to finish!

BYE!